If I told you that any of this change was easy, I’d be lying.
If I told you that all of the creation process was fun, I'd be lying.
If I told you that I wasn’t scared “putting myself out there”, I’d be lying.
If I told you that I knew how to build an empire, I’d be lying.
If I told you that I didn’t love this life from my core, I’d be lying.
If you ask me “are you okay?” And I say yes, I’d be lying.
Despite knowing that I’m on my path, some days are hard. This is the work of booming. I am better than okay; I am living. I love my growth and evolution better than safety and my own outdated expectations of life. Being who you are instead of following expectations blindly requires truth. Facing truth may inspire tears and smiles.
Nourrir’s birth occurred because someone else believed in me at a time when I did not. She saw skills I didn’t recognize. Her courage to tell me, coupled with her courage to be the spark is how I am here today, publishing. Each of us deserves that friend; the one that sees the light in you, the one that props you up so you can begin or continue or pick yourself up again. Nourrir hopes to be that friend; or, one of those friends. Our soul, sole, purpose lies in encouraging you to live your fullest life, today, to know you are enough just as you are.
The work of a seed becoming a plant is violent. She destroys all she has known about herself to emerge anew. Growth is movement beyond where we have been. I couldn’t see a future. But, I was falling back in love with my today. Falling back in love with my quirky, introverted version of passion. Falling in love with my whole self.
How can I help you fall in love with yourself? That is the question I ask myself everyday. That is why I do this.
2018, a year of radical highs and mysterious lows, learnings and rapid growth. 2018, perhaps the most transformative year of my life, after motherhood. 2018 most of the magazine was put on hold. A necessary break to honor my grieving, which I have written about in my blogs in the “Freya’s Thoughts” section. During that time, I kept building: photoshoots, articles, a fashion show, interviewing contributors and most importantly: DREAMING.
Nourrir‘s mission vibrates even more strongly for me. My purpose is to be a Lover; Nourrir is one way, a big way for me to express that Love. How many inspiring people out there are chasing dreams, living hard, failing, succeeding, and loving? I want to tell those stories. I want to tell them so we can keep inventing and reinventing ourselves.
Now is the time.
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